Tuesday, 17 August 2010

One day i'll fly away...

.... leave all this to yesterday....
Everyone they just take and take until you're just the shell of the person you once were. You look in the mirror and you don't see you... you see them.

I so easy, easy to hate.. but you're so fucking easy, easy to break...

I'm letting her back in.

She keeps me safe.
I am so up and down.

I do things i know i shouldn't.

And there's a part of me thats screaming inside.. screaming for me to stop. That i'm just hurting myself and other people.
I'm letting men treat me like shit.. Daddy issues... pffft. That ain't even the half of it.
I don't know who i am. I don't even know if there's a me anymore.. or whether i'm just a product of the people around me.
You raise the blade, you make the change
You re-arrange me 'till I'm sane
You lock the door and throw away the key
There's someone in my head, but it's not me.

I was drunk.. sleeping with a boy i shouldn't... i could have lost you and i'm sorry i wasn't there. I should have been. On the end of the phone. Telling you i'll love you forever. Telling you, if only i could, i'd take away all your pain...

I love you so much...